Everyday is an adventure. Everyday is a struggle to maintain balance, to keep from falling and failing. Somedays are better than others.
The other day, for instance, I received an email from the creator of the TV show Extreme Makeover: Home Edition. “What’s your cell phone number and when is the best time to call you?” I had sent him a pre-released copy of my book, I’M IN.
I was immediately flooded with conflicting thoughts and emotions. My first thought was, Uh Oh! I crossed the line. I said too much or I infringed on some copyright or something. He is going to give me a devastating blow. But then I began to think, Wait a minute, maybe he actually liked the book and is going to compliment me.
I work as a Table Games Dealer for Mohegan Sun casino. I can’t just sneak away to have a private phone coversation. I had all sorts of thoughts flying around in my mind. Does he like it? Does he know a publisher? Does he have other projects he is working on and he wants to hire me? Does he think it is movie material? (thinking Julie and Julia started this way.) Ohh, I was dreaming BIG!
I sent two follow up emails, giving my availability. No phone calls and no replies to my email. High and Low. Roses and Thorns. Sweet and Bitter. Walking a tightrope.
It doesn’t matter what the circumstances are, we all walk a tightrope. We struggle to find healthy balances in our lives. Career vs. Calling. Cheeseburgers vs Salads. Work vs Play. Walk the Dog vs Watching TV. We have to make choices everyday. Some are simple: large coffee or small coffee. Some are difficult: Do I send another email and risk becoming a pain in the ass versus showing passionate interest and determination? It’s a fine line, a tightrope.
Granted, most of our daily decisions and tightropes are not death-defying-feats of courage. However, we all have different comfort levels and different fears. Sometimes, we enlist the help of a coach to give us guidance and training. And, they may tell us to wear a helmet as we struggle to remain upright and keep our balance.
But ultimately, the task is ours. We are the only ones who can delicately put one foot in front of the other, to make decisions. To remain still, to stop, and look at the ground is “deadly.”
Walking a tightrope doesn’t have to be graceful and fluid. As long as you make it safely to the other side, who cares what the journey looked like to an audience. You made it. You lived to make it through another day. You can catch your breath, and then walk another thin line with greater confidence, with greater ease, with greater balance.
Just keep practicing. Don’t look behind you, that won’t help. And don’t look down!
Be Kind. Be Thankful. Be Significant.