In the quietness of frequent 90-minute, 3rd-shift commutes to work, I would talk to myself. Peter, what are you doing this for? Is this job worth the sacrifices you are making? You have been to hell and back already, and you are literally driving yourself back to that dark place. You know, there are a lot of unemployed people who would appreciate this job. You should stick it out. You have to help support your famil